A-Tom-ized

Yes its been a while. In part because I was busy traveling in Europe. And in part because I knew that writing here would require me to take a closer and honest view at my feelings in order to put them down in paper/blog.

The two weeks of vacation went by in a blur. I saw my family, I saw my friends. I went to a funeral (first person of my generation to pass away, so very tough and sad), and I attended a wedding (as a fantastic witness, I did a brilliant job of holding the pen to sign the registry while looking uber glamourous).

I also got up to a bit of mischief.. A long long time I wrote on this blog about my friend Tom. He is a friend from Europe I've known for a while with whom I used to have long, boozy and meaningful conversations about life. Well, in my few days in London in my trip, I managed to sort of seduce him. Which in a way is silly planning given I am toying with the idea of taking a year-long sabbatical to travel the world. A boyfriend in London does NOT fit with that plan. It was a spur of the moment thing, but we spent an amazing 24 hours together. I emerged from my time with him a bit dazzled, seduced, destablized.. It was not planned, but I really enjoyed the time with him.. We agreed to spend a week together in a paradise island and so next week end I fly off to to meet him in a luxurious resort. We will see what this time together ends up being like.

I am working away like mad at the gym to try to minimise my flabby bits in order to be a true goddess in 8 days' time. Though secretely I am also hoping for our time together to be rubbish, for him to be totally turned off by my fat bits, for me to realise he is a selfish mysogynistic pig, so that I won't have to make hard decisions about what to do about being infatuated with a man in Europe while still wanting to travel the world... Only time will tell..

In the meatime we are exchanging emails and naughty (oh so naughty) texts, I really can't wait for that week together to start.

Is fate having a laugh at my expense??